Tuesday, January 23, 2007
although mejo nagsusungit paren ako sakanya these past few days, napapansin ko na hindi na naiilang saken si peterpen.. nilapitan niya kagad ako right after teaching the juniors, kahit na nandun pa si tito victor (na possibleng magsumbong kay dad kahit na sobrang liit lang na bagay na tulad neto).. the whole hi-5 thing with boths hands, tapos matagal pa bago niya i-let go.. and the whole hand shake after sparring na matagal nia ren i-let go.. and the tap-on-the-shoulder thing just before he say "seeyah klev"... slimey fella.. haha look who's talking!!
well the difference between us is that everything he does is just a friendly act, walang malisya or anything like that so ok lang.. pero ako! haha... ako.. may feelings ako sa kanya so para saken may malisya yon.. gets?
pero sa tingin ko nakakaramdam na siya na naiinis ako sakanya.. i know ive always wanted him to know what i feel.. but now i feel guilty about it.. kasi sobrang friendly nia paren saken kahit na sobrang sungit ko as in TOTAL SUNGIT.. he even tries to cheer me up with… and napag isip isip ko ren na it’s so unfair on peterpen kasi wala nman talaga siyang ginagawang masama saken… he doesn’t even know why im acting really strange these past few days… and ngyong alam ko nang he doesn’t fancy chantelle anymore, and the girl i thought he fancied is actually his “bezzie”.. everything i’ve said before, the whole “i hate you peterpen” thing, has changed.. again.. ewan ko ba.. ayoko na ngang umasa eh..
he even makes me feel important in his own little ways.. ewan ko kng nag iimagine lang ako or what.. like nung nagchat kami sa msn, a part of our conversation was like this:
klev: erm.. can i ask u sumthin?
Peterpen: yea sure.. wot is it?
(after a loooong pause)
klev: nevermind.. soz..
peterpen: oh go on..
klev: naahh.. sorry.. just forget about it..
peterpen: no.. please say it!
klev: its not important, nvm
peterpen: it is!... please say it...
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
**at hindi niya talaga ako tinantanan.. i felt really guilty.. i didn’t really have anything to say...**
klev: lol its not important
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: it is!
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
klev: ok ok!
Peterpen: go on then..
klev: erm.. **at this point i was thinking of sumthin to ask**
peterpen: please klev.. say it
klev: i was just gonna ask.. when’s your birthday? lol :P
**now that’s a plain daft excuse in a form of a plain daft question**
peterpen: lol
peterpen: 30th July 1991.. u?
klev: ahh.. ok tnx..
klev: mine’s 28th October 1990
and that’s how i knew his birthday.. argh!! kahit na sobrang petty feeling ko paren important ako sakanya hahaha.... ano kayang iniisip nia nung sinabi nia "it is" (important) at sobrang nag "please.... say it" pa siya... hmmm...
ok ok tama na nga.
...this is my secret
Monday, January 22, 2007
nakakainis!! sooobra!! GIVE UP na nga dba? baket pa?!
grrrrr.... (>_<) nagchat nman kami sa msn nung weekend.. as expected, he asked me about the incident on friday lunchtime... nung pumunta siya sa school.. sabi nia tinatawag nia daw ako pero inignore ko daw siya... sumigaw pa daw siya at nag-wave (as in like biiig wave) saken pero hindi daw ako lumapit!! gosh! hindi pala ako nananaginip nung time na un, totoo pala na ginawa nia un! i knew it was him.. pero sabi ko, hindi ko siya nilapitan dahil hindi ko alam na siya pala un... i don't think he believed me though.. sabi pa nia "i wanted to talk to you.. you should've come.." pero wala nman siyang sasabihing importante saken na kelangan pa sa personal, otherwise he should've told me about it nung nagchat kami or nung nasa taekwondo kami (sa bagay sobrang sinungitan ko siya nung wednesday)... sabi ni peterpen tinawagan daw siya ni buwan nung lunchtime para pumunta sa school dahil bored daw siya.. so pumunta nnman ang bading... ang unang nakakita sakanya ay si ate ij dahil galing silang waitrose papasok ng school, nakita niya si peterpen kausap nga si buwan.. so i think nakita ren ni peterpen si ate ij and he knew that ate ij would tell me.. (and so she did) kaya nung lumabas ako at si ate ij, nakatingin na pala siya nun samen... kaya siguro alam nia na ako un... kaya siguro he didn't believe me.. sinabi ko kay natalie at kay ate ij as usual... sabi nia ate ij "ikaw bahala".. siya ang pessimist adviser ko... si natalie ang positibong side.. baket pa kasi niya ko kelangan kausapin eh meron na siyang kausap na iba (ang haliparot na si buwan) at kng meron man siyang importanteng sasabihin sana sinabi na niya... sabi ni natalie "perhaps he didnt have something important to tell you.. he didnt need to talk to you.. nor did he
not need to talk to you because he was talking to someone else.. he just
wanted to talk to YOU.. not because you are someone else but because you are YOU..." at natouch nman ako sa sinabi niang un... parang nakaka-uplift ng spirit... haha.. pero hindi na ako aasa... hayaan nalang mangyari kng anu mangyayari... i wouldnt wanna interfere or plan anything coz everytime i do, the opposite of what i want happens...
one of the random things na pinag usapan nmen ay tungkol sa kanilang dalawa ni chantelle (ung crush daw nia)... tinanong ko kng kamusta na sila, at kng sila na ba (ouch)...
sabi nia "im BORED of her.. i haven't seen her for like 4 weeks... so yea.. BORING.."
aba'y pinaglololoko ata ako ng bading na un ah... sabi nia last week pupunta siya sa bahay ni chantelle para mag "stay over" tpos ngyon sasabihin nia hindi sila nagkita ng 4 weeks? at bored na siya?? napakalabo! tpos ung akala kong bagong gusto nia na nakita ko sa "other half" niya sa bebo.. mali nnman ako... best friend niya lang pala un na babae... pero di ko lam kng meron siyang bagong "crush".. nakalagay kasi sa description nung babae:
"x_BEZZIE_x"
>>(his name was editted and blurred for security purposes most likely for MY security haha)kaya un... eto... binibigyan nia nnman ako ng dahilan upang wag mag give up... but naaahhh... mahirap nang umasa nnman... bahala na nga.
...this is my secret
Sunday, January 21, 2007
top left - natalie *chillin*
top right - louise *camera shy*
bottom - louisa and amy
and here's what i'm supposed to doing:
MY GRAPHICS COURSEWORK!!
but i've been doin it today for like 4 straight hours so im quite proud of myself hehe..
keep it up klev *tap on the shoulder*
...this is my secret
Friday, January 19, 2007
OMG!! he's younger than me!!! 30th July 1991 - that's his birthday!... akala ko mas matanda siya saken ng one year, hindi pala!! waaahhhh!! pano nalang ung mga sinabi ko dati "im never gonna like someone younger than me"... kinaen ko lahat! i cant believe i have these weird feelings for someone younger than me... nung nalaman ko un parang hindi ako makapaniwala... at ngayon bale wala na lahat nung sinabi ko dati... coz "his" age doesn't matter to me anymore.. besides, months lang nman ang gap nmen eh... i still feel the same..
...this is my secret
peterpen didn't attend taekwondo last night... neither did ate giselle who said she would...
i came 10 minutes late for the lesson and was really pissd off..
but then eventually i realised that i could't do anything about dad being late coz he works in Basingstoke and couldn't just fly his way home, if that makes sense.. i was so inconsiderate.
as i was sad, disappointed, angry, i gave all my effort and did all the excersises to a hundred percent power and strength... focused on the task and did well on the sparring.. Mr. Houston said "good techniques"..
i decided that i'd give up on peterpen.. but when i entered the boxing gym, the first thing i did was to see whether he was actually there... i didn't mean to do that.. it just seemed like a reflex reaction..
i wondered why he wasn't there.. might be because this week is their mock exams week.. he might be ill - but peterpen? ill? naaahhh... - maybe he went somewhere else.. probably to a party, as he is definitely a 'party guy'.. or might be that he simply couldn't be bothered to do taekwondo.. but naah.. he's a 'martial arts enthusiast' he couldn't bare to do that.. i missed him... but why?? didn't i give up on him?? grrrr....... (>_<) ......NOW!ate ivy just came in and said peterpen is outside.. at this very moment.. talking to buwan... at first i didn't believe her... but she said she was telling the truth.. i had this voice inside me, this urge, saying i should go and see if it's true.. it was my evil twin.. she wanted to see him but my brain didnt give her permission.. after a few seconds, evil twin didn't stop annoying me so i went to the form room and looked outside through the window.. i didnt see anything... but i fixed my hair and texted ate ivy "wala nman xa eh bading ka".. then i went back to the computer room, where i am now..but then ate ivy came for the second time saying he is actually there... so i went outside the maths building which is a few metres away from the gate... i saw him.. with his bike.. he was actually there, talking to buwan and someone else.. i turned around coz i didnt want him to see me... ate ivy left me so i decided just to go back and continue with my blogging.. but while i was holding the door, which had a transparent glass, i had a final glimpse of him and buwan... but he shouted "klev!!!".. i think he even waved at me but im not so sure... i didnt wanna talk to him and buwan so i just ignored him...and here i am now.. how ironic. i was just writing about how i missed him although i said i am giving up... then now, there he is.. outside... talking to buwan...
...this is my secret
Thursday, January 18, 2007
kahapon ay wednesday.. grabe.. sobrang nakakapagod... nakakastress.. lahat ng inis ko kay peterpen ay ibinuhos ko sa badminton matches nmen, kaya nanalo ako sa bawat game na aking nilaro.. masyado daw akong agresibo at bayolente.. sabi nga ni natalie "klev, chill out!!"..
hindi na kami nagkikita pag wednesdays dahil nagbago na ang schedule sa taekwondo.. mas maaga na ang pasok ko 5:30pm-6:15pm, at pagkatapos ng lesson nmen ay lesson nila peterpen.. hindi na ko umaasa... na makikita ko siya.. at makakausap..
pero as usual.. pag hindi ako umaasa saka nangyayari ang gusto kong mangyari.. saka sya sumusulpot at gumagawa ng kung anu ano para umasa nnman ako.. pero this time around, tama na.. pahinga na muna si hearty kasi masyado na daw siyang pagod umasa at masaktan.. kaya pinag-holiday ko muna sya..
kahapon ay dumating si peterpen sa klase nmen.. 30 minutes siyang maaga para sa klase nila... baket kaya? eh datirati nman, nung magkasama pa kami sa klase pag wednesday parati syang late.. so umupo siya sa gilid, sa may tapat ko.. meron siyang hawak na hindi ko mawari kung ano.. mukang camera na PSP na ewan.. pero sa tuwing lilingon ako sa direksyon niya, nakatapat saken ung hawak niya na parang nakatingin siya saken gamit un..
itinuro na saken ang bago kong pattern, "Dan-gun".. pero dahil kelangan din matuto ng bagong pattern ung nagtuturo saken, pinapalitan siya ni Mr. Houston kay peterpen, na nakaupo sa gilid.. kinabahan ako, hindi ko alam kung bakit.. nang lumalapit siya saken, nakangiti siya at nag hello.. pero hindi ako ngumiti o nag-hello sakanya.. tumingin ako sa harap at nag-"chunbi" position lang ako ("ready" position)... nang tinatanong niya ung iba kong kasama kung hanggang saan na ung naituturo samen, sumagot sila.. ako, hindi.. kasi nga nman sumagot na sila... naka-"chunbi" position pren ako.. nang hindi ako sumagot, tumahimik silang lahat.. hinihintay kasi ni peterpen ung sagot ko... hindi paren ako sumagot hanggang sinabi niyang "kleeevv..." na parang naglalambing ang tono ng pananalita... naka-smile siya, as usual.. pero sumagot lang ako at hindi ngumiti... kinarir ko lahat ng pinagawa saken.. ako ung ginagawa niyang example, hindi ko alam kung bakit... tapos msyado niya akong kinokorek.. kahit na mababa ng 1 cm lang ang kamay ko, hinawakan niya at inusog niya pren.. parang nagpapapansin.. pero wala.. deadma lang.. seryoso ako buong lesson.. hindi ako nakipag-usap sakanya o nakipagbiruan... walalang... i treated him like an instructor... i didn't even say "bye".. siguro nman, sana naman, nakaramdam na siya..
...this is my secret
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
napaka insensitive!
napaka labo!
anu ba talagang gusto mo?
pinapaasa mo lang ako!
last time we had the same conversation sabi mo wala kang gusto..
the second time around, sabi mo gusto mo si chantelle yeung...
pero ngyon, iba nnman ang gusto mo??
anu un, parang flavour of the week na pwde mong palit-palitan?
pinaglalaruan mo ata ako eh!
pinaglalaruan mo lang ang feelings ko!
wala na...
i give up..
ayoko nang umasa
at paulit-ulit na masaktan...
tama na..
sobra ka na eh...
i love you... i hate you peterpen!
...this is my secret
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
ayoko na.. i give up..
...this is my secret
napakalabo talaga nia.. ewan ko ba.. kung kelan sobrang nag gigive up na ko sa kanya, saka nman siya gagawa ng dahilan para umasa ako at hindi mag give up... para siyang bahay na merong thermostat, na kapag nag iincrease o nag dedecrease ang hope level ko sa optimum level, meron siyang ginagawang effect para maibalik sa normal.. kumbaga sa body processes siya ay homeostasis.. he maintains the normal hope level of kleveleine.. arrrghh!!! masisira ang ulo ko dito sa kakaisip!
last night was monday - taekwondo night.. andun xa syempre.. pagdating ko umupo ako sa tapat nila ni epal dahil nagtuturo sila ng mga juniors.. nag "hi" saken si epal tpos tumingin din si peterpen at xmpre nag "hi" ren... nung lesson, hindi ko sinasadyang maging ka-row siya, hence, siya ay naging ka-group ko sa warm up exercise.. after my turn, nung pabalik na ako ng line, parang nag-ooffer siya saken ng "hi-5" but i ran to the opposite side so siya nman parang napahiya kaya binaba nlang nia ung hand nia.. after his turn, he stood by me and talked to me.. napaka bango nga nia eh kahit pawisin.. super turn on.. nag usap kami na parang normal lang.. na parang walang nangyari.. after the warm up, pinagawa kami ng maraming exercises.. first stop, sparring.. sabi "pair off with a partner".. nakatingin siya saken pero lumingon ako sa iba so lumapit si emma saken at siya nlang nging partner ko.. then after nung first round ng sparring sbi mkpagpartner nman daw sa iba.. tumingin ako sknya, nkitingin ulit sya skn pero katabi ko si zeb kaya siya nlang naging partner ko.. third time, lumapit na talaga siya skn... i saw him walking towards me so tumingin ulit ako sa iba, pero he shouted "klev!" kaya eun.. kami naging mag partner.. nagsparring kami, and this time around, nag ingat na ako para hindi ko siya matamaan "dun sa masakit".. haha kasi twice ko na siya natatamaan "dun sa masakit" eh LOL.. after sparring, break.. he talked to me.. then next exercise needed a group of 3.. nakita ko si epal at si peterpen parehong nakatingin skn.. since magkatabi na sila, niyaya ni epal si peterpen para maging ka-group.. then tinawag nila ko as in they shouted "klev! come with us!".. palapit na ako pero lumapit sknila si sam na wala pang ka-group.. so umalis nalang ulit ako at naghanap ng ibang group.. unexpetedly, pinaalis nila si sam at tinawag ulit nila ako para magjoin sa group nila.. flattered naman ako hehe... ang cute nga nung exercise nmen eh, nagkukulitan nnman kami ni peterpen at parang na-out-of-place nnmam si epal haha.. then we did some technical stuff and line works.. after that, nagpatterns kami.. pinauna ung first two rows na magperform ng pattern.. i was at the back so i talked to emma whilst waiting for my turn.. pero at the same time i was watching him perform his pattern and i was just gob-smacked.. as usual, i admired him for being sooo amazing.. after their turn, lumapit siya skn and he talked to me.. i didnt notice emma go and mr. houston say that we should do our patterns.. syempre dahil na kay peterpen ung buong focus ko hehe... whilst we were talking, lumapit si mr houston at tinanong kng bakit hindi ako nagpapattern haha!! i just kinda ignored him and carried on talking to peterpen.. we were talking about how gay epal was.. haha.. sabi ni peterpen ang sama daw ng tingin ni epal sakanya.. sabi ko nman, kasi nga crush ka nia haha... then we were just laughing.. after the taekwondo lesson he was packing up, eh magkahiwalay ung bag nmen so we didnt really talk... then when i was about to go, i decided to 'read the bulletin board', which was just by the door... or in klev's term, wait for peterpen... so i did... he was about to leave but when he saw me he decided to 'read the bulletin board' as well... in klev's term, wait for me too... although nandon na si erpats sa labas naghihintay sknya, nkipag usap pren siya skn... then sabay kami lumabas ng pinto.. pero nakita ko si dad papalapit so humiwalay na ako sakanya... kahit na malayo na ako, sumigaw paren siya "seeyah klev!" so ako nman xmpre nag bye ren ako... nung nasa car na ako, nakita ko siya nakatingin saken... then kumaway siya saken at nag bye.... haiii.... sobrang naguguluhan na talaga ako sakanya.. di ko lam kung ano ba tlg dapat kong isipin.. parang lahat nung sinabi nia, about his crush and all that crap, ay kasinungalingan... parang pinagseselos nia ako.. ewan ko ba.. lahat ng ginagawa nia kelangan ko pang i-analise ng mabuti upang lubusang maunawaan ang nais niyang iparating... (?_?)
and because of what happened last night, nag-increase nnman ang hope level ko kahit papano... as a result, mejo naging hyper ako ngyong araw na ito.. "you're such a giggler today" sabi ng mga classmates ko... hehe (^^,) tpos ung discussion pa nmen about sa mga teachers na naka-thong! hahaha!! makes me laugh!
...this is my secret
Monday, January 15, 2007
mood: 
last week all Peterpen did was to make me believe that there is some hope that he might like me too... from my previous blogs, he's everything i talk i about... my feelings were obviously up to the highest level of happiness but then... comes Saturday and everything's vanished into thin-air.. HOPE LEVEL depreciated from 100% to the current 0.1% of him liking me back... why?.. i'll tell you why...
Saturday afternoon, we talked on MSN... first it started off fine.. he was still doin his usual job of makin me kilig to the maxx.. he asked if i have a webcam, which i do not possess due to the fact that my parents are THAT strict.. but i said "yea" then he wanted to see me so i said "not in this computer.." but he asked me to get it, said "soz i cudnt be bothered" and if ever i had one i wudnt really want him to see me anyway.... but he was like "pleeeeeeaaaaasssseeeee!!!!!" as in begging me.... so i just said "do u wanna see a monster? lol" then he replied "NOT FUNNY!!!"... ok so that was a bit of a compliment for me... eventualy he stopped...
then he went on (again) about our crushes... he said Scott a.k.a. 'epal' told him he fancies me and of course i was like no way!.. then he still asked me who i fancy and of course i didnt tell him.. he's the one person i couldn't tell for obvious reasons!! then he was like "i'd tell everyone in our taekwondo class that u fancy scott if u dont tell me who u fancy".. and so i went "go on then.. just u try and i'll never ever talk to u again... NEVER, i say!"... he thot i was jokin he said "FINE!" and i said "FINE!! i mean it...".. i really meant it... after a few seconds of being idle he said "ok sorry. i wont tell anyone..." i was like "good"... but still he didnt stop askin me.... he even said "i wont make u do harder kicks if u tell me"... i said "just make me do harder kicks, i dont mind" haha... he asked me why i wont tell him (duuuurrrh!!!).. i said "well u wudnt tell me hu u fancy, wud u?? its just like that!".. then he said "ok i'll tell u who i fancy... i fancy Chantelle Yeung.. now, tell me yours" (take note: last time we had this conversation he said he didnt fancy anyone) and soooo i was quite shocked and sooo disappointed... so i kind of deflected the question by asking "then why dont u ask her out? i bet she fancies u too..." he said he was stayin over HER house that night... then i said i gotta go and signed off... OUCH!!! how insensitive could he fckn be??!!! why wouldnt he notice my feelings for him? is it me? might not be obvious that i like him but i could say the same thing to him.. i dont know whteher he only sees me as a friend.. he doesnt make it clear.. he says everyone could read him like a book, but thats just a lie...! i couldnt! im soooo confused... sometimes most of the time whenever im with him he gives the impression that he likes me more than a friend... but now ive realised that everything was just a friendly act.. he was just being friendly as usual.. pleasing everybody around him... yes, he is 'all that'... as i have described him, close to perfection.... but i didnt realise that it hurts this much just to love like him...
...this is my secret
Friday, January 12, 2007
i love to hurt you babyi love to see you so sadi want to hear you sayin pleasei love to see you bleedini want to see you broken because of mei want you down on your kneescoz it's the only thing that makes me realisethat there is somethin in your heart that you hideyou don't talk about it so i dont knowbut i wanna hear it so baby please..tell me now if you really love metell me now if you really need metell me nowtell me now coz im confusedtell me now coz my heart is breakintell me now coz i wont stop askintell me nowtell me nowcoz i really really wanna knowi love to hurt you babyi want to see you everythin wrongi wanna see teardrops in your eyesi wanna see you bleedini wanna see you cryini want you down on your kneescoz it's the only thing that makes me realise
that there is somethin in your heart that you hide
you don't talk about it so i really dont know
but i wanna hear it so baby please..tell me now if you really love me
tell me now if you really need me
tell me now
tell me now coz im confused
tell me now coz my heart is breakin
tell me now coz i wont stop askin
tell me
tell mecoz i really really wanna knowi wanna see you walkin awayjust wanna break it until i hear you say..so tell me now if you really love meif you need meif you want metell me now coz my heart is breakinwont stop askincoz i really really wanna know..
...this is my secret
grabe na ito!! to the highest level of KILIGNESS nnman ako last night! haha!! because ate ivy and ate giselle doesnt attend taekwondo lessons anymore, coz apparently they're "busy", peterpen and i are getting even closer.. as in hindi na xa naiilang saken and we get more time to chat to each other.. im not saying na ayoko sila ate ij and ate gh pumunta.. its just that.. pag nandon sila, hindi lumalapit si peterpen.. parang naiilang and nahihiya... but oh well... last night was soooo great!!! and of course soooo tiring!! as in grabe ung mga exercises na pinagawa samen lalo na ung 10-minute split nmen kay mr. chick!! grrrr (>.<) pero lahat ng pagod at sakit ay nawawala dahil kay peterpen hahaha!!.. corny! anyways... last night i came about 10 minutes before the time.. pag pasok ko palang ng boxing gym nakita ko kagad si peterpen nakatingin saken.. so i kinda looked away.. but then i saw there wasn't any space left for me to sit, but there beside him!... kasi nman sa boxing gym, isang mahabang chair lang sa left side.. then i noticed wala siya katabi and he wasnt talking to anyone, which is quite a shock.. he was alone.. and also kinda sad.. i didnt wanna repeat what i did before, or better yet did NOT do before... so i went and talked to him and sat beside him... i tried to cheer him up.. papalapit palang ako nakatingin na ako sakanya at nakatingin ren xa saken, na parang mejo surprised ung expression nia kasi first time ever kong tumabi sa kanya, normally siya ung lumalapit saken.. and i was also quite suprised about myself dahil that time parang hindi ako nahiya or nailang sakanya.. so i took my coat off and when i was about to switch my ipod off, he grabbed it... sakto i was listening to the song "if we fall in love"!! hahaha!!.. then he looked at me after seeing the title haha tpos naghanap na xa ng ibang songs.. naalala ko na meron pala siyang photo dun sa ipod ko so i sat beside him to see kung ano ung mga tinitingnan nia sa ipod ko.. nung tinapat nia sa "photos" section i was so worried that he would see his pic so i sort of prepared my hand by the ipod so in case he opens it i would easily grab the ipod.. i think he noticed that i didnt want him to open the "photos" section so he went back to see and hear all the songs.. then nilagay nia ung isang earphone sa left ear ko and he moved even closer to me! we were talking, laughing and joking about loads of stuff.. mostly from my ipod.. he told me those songs that he liked.. and ung pinaka like nia dun sa ipod ko ung "a thousand miles".. he said it's one of his all-time favourite songs.. then we listened to the WHOLE song together.. un lang ung song na tinapos nmen... he was even singing! haha! but i should say, his voice was good... haii... (~~,) feeling ko tuloy ako ung kinakantahan nia nun haha!!... i asked him "do you sing?" he said "im learning".... i remember i told him i was in the choir and i already asked him the same question before but he said he doesnt sing... hmmm... wonder what made him want to learn how to sing hehe (^^,)we talked about quite alot of things... like him being grade 5 in piano. playing the guitar really well (i dont know his grade). songs that he could play on the piano and guitar.... his favourite songs... ahh basta madami pang iba... whilst we were talking and laughing, i could see epal looking at us! haha!our little chat and soundtrip ended when our taekwondo lesson started.. unfortunately he wasnt my partner =(although he was looking at me, the look that says 'be my partner' haha, pero ang bading ko nman kasi nakatingin ako sa iba kunwari.. even though the truth was in the corner of my eyes i was lookin at him..ang daming exercises na pinagawa samen as in walang techinical stuff.. Mr Houston said it was to burn off all the turkey from Christmas haha so it was REALLY HARD as in!! and after the 10-minute split from Mr Chick we did a kicking exercise where we needed to kick the punching bag hanging from the ceiling!! LOL!! i had absolutely no energy left i thought i was gonna fall over!! pero ok lang kasi si peterpen nman ang nagbibigay saken ng energy haha!! as in all the pain and fatigue were overwhelmed by his presence! haha!! he was even encouraging me... for the kicking exercise, he was in my row.. as usual, as he kicked the punching bag, i was so impressed.. as in napakalakas ng sipa nia ung napakabigat na punching bag ay tumitilapon!! he made it look really easy... but when it was my go to kick i realised how heavy the punching bag was!! i admired him even more... when i got to the end of the row, where he was, he said "good kick!" and then offered a Hi-5 on one hand... so we did a Hi-5.. pero nung binaba ko na ung kamay ko, nakahawak paren xa saken!! OMG!! and it lasted for quite a while before he let go of my hand!! hahaha!! i was encouraged so i kicked even harder and for the second time he offered me a Hi-5 pero this time, with both of his hands!!!!! hahaha!! nung nakipag Hi-5 ako my hands were quite loose (i.e. i wasnt holding on that tight)... pero siya!! siya!! napakahigpit ng hawak nia saken!! OMG! then when we dropped our hands he was still holding on!! haha!! and that was even longer than the first one! as in he was holding my two hands for a looooong time (xmpre mabilis ang takbo ng oras sa mundo ko e!) for me it was like 10 hours na!! hahaha!! suuuuper total kiligness nnman ako... he just let go of my hands when he turned around to kick.. and in between breaks, everytime we had a chance to talk, we did.. kahit na sobrang short talk lang.. after that round he said "i think i just saw your dad coming"... so THE END na ng moments nmen! haha! but although dad and mum came, we were still talking to each other pero xmpre ako ay mejo naghinayhinay na kaya nagconcentrate nlang ako sa aking kicks.. tpos at the end of the lesson he was standing beside dad.. he said "seeyah klev".. when i came to greet dad with a kiss on the cheek he looked at me... and then umalis na kami... our car was parked beside peterpen's then nakita ko ung mum nia nakatingin saken at naka-smile.. haha... she knows me coz they've already given me a lift.. peterpen's dad also knows me for the same reason!!... and then i got home with that big fat permanent smile on my face.. which is actually still here up to this very moment... <3
...this is my secret
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
BITIN GRABE!! We soooo should have more holidays!! And less school work!! Gosh im soooo stressed out!! Take note it’s just our third day back to school from our Christmas holidays!! Grabe i feel like im gonna die in any second! Anyways, got little time to do some blogging so here i go….
christmas holidays have been alright.. after the midnight mass which we have attended as a family, we've spent our noche buena at ate karen’s new house, along with other family friends: ate erlie & kuya bob, ate june & kuya aris, and kya francis with his bf - who is actually really totally gorgeous! grabe!! inggit ako kay kuya francis haha.. here's a picture of 'em:
o dba?! anyways, back to my blog..
got quite a lot of presents and
ALOT of christmas cards from friends and family.. yea i was satisfied lol coz i realised my only Christmas wish was too expensive for a Christmas gift, a laptop.. so i didnt tell anyone lol. and of course the one that’s so impossible… ahuh! for those of you who know me you probably guessed it right! Peterpen… yer… anyways, new year wasn’t any more exciting than Christmas eve.. went to church then to a party then went back home to spend new year’s eve and media noche with my family..
before the hols i said i was gonna do
LOADS of work!!!! i.e. my graphics, english, biology and physics… all of which are courseworks btw… but naaahhh!! Couldn’t be asked to do them… did some of my biology and english a day before we went back to school!! haha.. and now ive finished my english biology and physics!! However!!! I still haven’t got any sort of progress on my graphics coursework!! And now what??! Im screwed, i am!! Grrrr……. I always leave my graphics last.. so now, my
"new year’s resolution" is to do
LOADS of graphics!! And keep updated with my gantt chart which i haven’t actually made use of since the start of the course…
***(nuisance)
and now natalie’s bugging me again!! Grrr.. and after natalie’s gone, now cherise is coming… OMG here she iss!!!
….And she left
just before the bell!! Now i have to contine writing this blog at break!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr >.< *** ….sooooo! after escaping from the constant annoyance and buggering that Natalie and cherise are causing! Here i go again.. anyways, i am actually fckd up with all these courseworks, and not to mention with my art cw on the way.. i have to keep up with all my deadlines!! time's really running toooo fast i gotta catch up!!
HOWEVER, everything seems sooo perfect and bright after monday night! Haha!!!.. oh btw, i now have my Taekwondo lessons every
Monday, Wednesday and Thursday coz they had all those sorts of problems with the Salisbury college so now were gonna do it in the boxing gym… ehem! Yer of course peterpen was there last night.. i was 10 minutes late for the TKD lesson coz we didn’t quite find the place.. but he immediately talked to me when we had a short break! Hehe… after i have received my new belt and my certificate with credit award, he congratulated me.. well, everyone did.. he wasn’t my partner that nigh =( but after that TKD lesson, i got home and ate pasta and ferrero rocher (thanks to the Santos family), and did my courseworkS.. i wasn’t quite sure what to do for some bits on my physics so i decided to sign in on MSN cz i knew my classmate would be there.. and i was right… but it wasn’t just her! haha surprise surprise!! Peterpen was also online! Ahuh! And after asking my classmate about the coursework, i then got on with another kind of “work” hahaha!! Called “
stalking” thanks to my instructor, ate ivy!! Haha!... and so we did chat.. but i went offline so that no one would annoy me, i.e. just to get rid of Natalie… then he asked me why i was on “appear offline” or for YMers “invisible”… then he went invisible as well! Haha! Asked him why and he said:
“so that i wouldn’t have to chat with someone i don’t wanna talk to”…. ahuh!!!! I was like what are u trying to say mah darling! haha!... then we talked about loads of stuff!!.. even talked about ate ivy! haha sorry ate i just kinda ran out of topic!! anyways! The highlight is!!..... Tentededen!! Well i saw his pic was some celeb girl on bikini so i changed my pic to Jeremy Sumpter’s!! haha! here it is:
but because the pic was a portrait one, the bit where it says "klev's property" didnt show up!! oh well... then he asked who the guy in the pic was... at first i didn’t tell him! haha techniques! to see if he actually is
that manhid or if there's a glint of hope that he might actually feel something for me!... then he was like
“is he your boyfriend?” hahaha!! I was pissin myself!!! grabe! but he didnt stop until he knew who that guy was so eventually i told him it was Jeremy Sumpter!! followed by
"me? boyfriend?? haha! i dont have one!" and he was sooo shocked he even put a shocked smiley and said:
"whaaaat?? no way!!" haha!! i said:
"yea im tellin the truth.. i dont have one.. durrrh!" he asked me
"how come" hahaha! i didnt know what to say so i just wrote
"LOL" haha... then he asked me
"do you fancy someone then??" hahahaha" OMG this is it!! i was in
TOTAL KILIGNESS!! i said:
"yer..." knowin he'd ask a follow up question.. and then he did! he asked who i fancy, i said
"secret! im not tellin you!! why? are you gonna tell me yours?! LOL" hahaha i didnt expect he would though... he replied
"naah i dont fancy anyone"... hahaha i was like course not.. he just didnt wanna tell me who it was... or if that was true, which i dont think it is, then he's a TOTAL MANHID!!... so i said:
"see! you wouldnt tell me, would you!" but then he still insisted that question WHO i fancy!! course i didnt tell him! so he went on again about HOW COME i didnt have a boyfriend!! grrrrrrr!!! i was thinkin: well i wouldnt tell you who i fancy coz durrrh it is YOU!! and i dont have a boyfriend coz YOU are so MANHID, LABO, and TORPE!!
haaiiiiii...... well at least after those 2 hours of chattin' i realised that there was some GLINT OF HOPE!! ~~,
...this is my secret
