Tuesday, January 23, 2007
although mejo nagsusungit paren ako sakanya these past few days, napapansin ko na hindi na naiilang saken si peterpen.. nilapitan niya kagad ako right after teaching the juniors, kahit na nandun pa si tito victor (na possibleng magsumbong kay dad kahit na sobrang liit lang na bagay na tulad neto).. the whole hi-5 thing with boths hands, tapos matagal pa bago niya i-let go.. and the whole hand shake after sparring na matagal nia ren i-let go.. and the tap-on-the-shoulder thing just before he say "seeyah klev"... slimey fella.. haha look who's talking!!
well the difference between us is that everything he does is just a friendly act, walang malisya or anything like that so ok lang.. pero ako! haha... ako.. may feelings ako sa kanya so para saken may malisya yon.. gets?
pero sa tingin ko nakakaramdam na siya na naiinis ako sakanya.. i know ive always wanted him to know what i feel.. but now i feel guilty about it.. kasi sobrang friendly nia paren saken kahit na sobrang sungit ko as in TOTAL SUNGIT.. he even tries to cheer me up with… and napag isip isip ko ren na it’s so unfair on peterpen kasi wala nman talaga siyang ginagawang masama saken… he doesn’t even know why im acting really strange these past few days… and ngyong alam ko nang he doesn’t fancy chantelle anymore, and the girl i thought he fancied is actually his “bezzie”.. everything i’ve said before, the whole “i hate you peterpen” thing, has changed.. again.. ewan ko ba.. ayoko na ngang umasa eh..
he even makes me feel important in his own little ways.. ewan ko kng nag iimagine lang ako or what.. like nung nagchat kami sa msn, a part of our conversation was like this:
klev: erm.. can i ask u sumthin?
Peterpen: yea sure.. wot is it?
(after a loooong pause)
klev: nevermind.. soz..
peterpen: oh go on..
klev: naahh.. sorry.. just forget about it..
peterpen: no.. please say it!
klev: its not important, nvm
peterpen: it is!... please say it...
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
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peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
**at hindi niya talaga ako tinantanan.. i felt really guilty.. i didn’t really have anything to say...**
klev: lol its not important
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: it is!
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
peterpen: please..............
klev: ok ok!
Peterpen: go on then..
klev: erm.. **at this point i was thinking of sumthin to ask**
peterpen: please klev.. say it
klev: i was just gonna ask.. when’s your birthday? lol :P
**now that’s a plain daft excuse in a form of a plain daft question**
peterpen: lol
peterpen: 30th July 1991.. u?
klev: ahh.. ok tnx..
klev: mine’s 28th October 1990
and that’s how i knew his birthday.. argh!! kahit na sobrang petty feeling ko paren important ako sakanya hahaha.... ano kayang iniisip nia nung sinabi nia "it is" (important) at sobrang nag "please.... say it" pa siya... hmmm...
ok ok tama na nga.
...this is my secret
