Tuesday, February 27, 2007
gayi just called peterpen "gay" hahaha.. we were chattin on msn, then he went on about scott, saying scott fancies me and all that crap.. so i acused him of being gay.. i said he was the one who fancies scott, though i know he isn't really gay (i hope).. but we both agreed that scott is bi.. haha poor scott.. it's soo funny whenever i call peterpen gay, as in face to face, and then he acts like one.. i really love his sense of humour.. it really gets me even at times when i feel like i hate him... he makes me laugh all the time, makes me forget everything that stresses me out...
ive finally come to reality and come to my senses again.. i give up.. yes i know i've said this before.. but now i finally realised that all he wanted to share with me was friendship, so that's all i would expect from him.. and nothing more.. although, this time i wouldn't be in denial about my feelings anymore.. i admit that although im giving up on him, doesn't mean that i dont like him anymore.. coz i do. i really do.. and im not closing any doors, saying i will not hope that, somehow, he likes me like the way i feel for him... because i am.. but this time, i'll TRY not to.. so it won't hurt..
...this is my secret
