Friday, March 30, 2007
easter holsschool term has come to an end once again.. today is our last day of term.. been into so much stress these past few weeks and so knowin that im havin a little break for 2 weeks is just a big relief..
i had my taekwondo grading and successfully passed "with flying colours" (a quotation from peterpen haha), even got a distinction award! ha! in ur face mr. black belter!!! peterpen who constantly teased me for "accidentally" doing the twin forearm block in a funny way.. what he got from me was a punch when i walked past him in town hahaha!
i also finished all 3 units of my art courseworks today, even skived yesterday to finish one WHOLE unit.. i even had a paper cut because i was in such a hurry finishing my art courseworks..
at the end of the day i was rewarded with a Pizza Hut treat supposedly by KL because she's the bday girl, but since she's the bunso ate ij paid for the bill..she even had an arguement with the stupid waitress who took literally more than an hour to serve our dessert and still had the guts say our bill was apparently £80!! >.< grrr, if i was there i would have got into a full on fight with that stupid waitress, not only giving her the "EVILS" on the plate hahaha!! otherwise, i had so much fun today talking to ate ij, KL and ate sel about alot of stuff, criticising random people with them and we even watched a full on PDA (Public Display of Affection) by the library (which lasted for like half an hour or so) and by the bus stop where we filmed the bus driver who was comfortably sat, drinking his coffee/tea whilst watching the 2 teenagers show their love and affection like they were just in a bedroom all by themselves.. i also enjoyed our little "Coke out of the nose" game with ate giselle hahahaha and the man who was either drunk or was just really stupid to walk into the glass which we were sat by..
"yodelly good"
...this is my secret
Thursday, March 15, 2007
kapal ng mukha mo!ang kapal ng mukha mo!! after everything that’s happened u really think i’d still have feelings for you??!!! well think again, bastard! i know i’ve been so stupid to fall for someone like you, and i regret having you in my life, but i’m not THAT stupid to make the same mistake again!! ang ayos ayos ng buhay ko tapos guguluhin mo nnman!! may padramadrama ka pang nalalaman hinayupak ka!! dba sabi mo if it’s over, it’s over?? eh anong ginagawa mo ngyon?! nagmumulto ka! bakit? nagsawa ka na sa mga babae mo at ako nman ang pinaplano mong targetin ulit?! ha!! neknek mo!!!!! manigas ka!!! wag ka lang magpapakita saken kundi baka di ko lang mapigilan sarili ko at kung ano pang magawa ko sayo!! stop pushin yourself into my life!! not the person you said you were, after all?!!! just stay out of my life ok!! im so much better off without you!!grrrrrrrrr!!!!!! I HATE YOU!! saksak mo yan sa kokote mo!!! **kawawang shuttlecock gutay gutay tuloy pagkatapos ng PE lesson nmen! well at least i won 3 consecutive badminton matches.. can't wait to get all that anger out in taekwondo!!!!
(>.<)
...this is my secret
Thursday, March 08, 2007
go and die you BASTARD!after nearly a year or so, why the hell would you wanna ask me how i'm doin and fuckn come into my life like nothing's happened? after i have moved on, after realising my stupidity and after surviving from the tragic past that you have given me, all of a sudden you're just gonna text me, ruin my beautiful day, and restore all the pain by making me remember all the things that i have tried to forget in such a long timel!! what right do you think you have to even call me "hun"?! who do you think you are, you fuckn BASTARD!! you said you just remembered me? what a lame excuse.. well you know what, you can forget everything about me because to be honest i don't fuckn care about you anymore and i have considered you DEAD eversince!! you've put me through enough!! i'm so much better off without you so just get out of my life!! RIGHT OUT!
at times like this, it's so good to know that i have one very good friend,
though normally doesn't seem like it, that's always there whenever i need
someone to talk to and a shoulder to cry on.. who gives me useful advice
whenever i just feel like crying because i don'r know what to do.. who
understands me despite my silence.. thanks natalie.
...this is my secret
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
lasingmeron akong kwento. ito ay tungkol sa aking kakilala na may asawa at pamilya. ang lalaking ito mahilig uminom ng alak. hindi ko sinasabing siya ay lasinggero sapagkat ang lalaking ito ay may sakit sa dugo, "high blood" kung tawagin, at ang kanyang karamdaman ay ang dahilan kung bakit siya ay naghinayhinay muna sa pag iinom ng alak.ngunit isang araw ay bumaba ang kanyang dugo sa "normal" kung kaya't siya ay nagdiwang at nagpunta sa isang "party".. "party" kung saan ay inuman lamang ang pangunahing ipinagdiriwang.. siya ay nagpakalunod sa alak at kanyang inabuso ang pagiging libre sa dahilang ang kanyang asawa na isang nurse ay galing 'late shift' nang gabing iyon.. ang lalaking aking ikinukwento ay maaga umuwi.. maaga umuwi sapagkat alas quatro na ng umaga nang siya ay nakarating ng kanyang tahanan na, sa awa ng diyos, ligtas pa at buhay..pag dating ay agad agad siyang dumeretso sa kanilang silid at doon ay natulog sa kama.. dahil sa umaalingasaw niyang amoy, ang kanyang butihing asawa ay hindi na nakatiis kung kaya't ito ay lumipat at natulog na lamang sa kanilang sala.. kinaumagahan, mga alas siette ng umaga ay kinakailangan bumangon ng sinasabi kong lalaki dahil kailangan niyang ihatid ang kanyang asawa na papasok nang "early shift".. maswerteng lalaki, nakatulog ng tatlong oras.. ngunit paglabas niya nang kanilang bahay ay kanyang ipinagtaka kung bakit mas malamig sa karaniwan ang kanyang pakiramdam.. at pagpasok sa kanyang kotse, kung saan ay naghihintay si misis, ay tila lasing paren si lalaki.. bakit ko nasabi? dahil sinigawan siya ng kanyang asawang humahalakhak at nagsabing "hoy! bakit nakabrief ka lang?!! bumalik ka don at magbihis ka!!!" -.-
...this is my secret
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
no... no!!scott asked me out twice, and i turned him down twice haha.. i mean, if someone says no, why would you wanna ask 'em out again and be turned down for the second time? he's gotta take all the hints!! but honestly, in a way i kinda feel sorry for him.. i know he likes me.. well durrh?!.. and i can see he's trying hard to impress me, well everyone really.. but i could tell that he does try hard just for me to like him.. however despite all his efforts, i still don't feel even a tinnie winnie bit for him.. coz i like someone else, peterpen of course.. even though i dont like him as much as i used to, i still like him, like, like him like him.. got it? yea i know, even i am confused.. but really, i've already given up on him.. in fact i dont even care if i see him or not.. but i must admit that he still makes my heartbeat jump a second of two when he smiles or talks to me.. perhaps one of the reasons why i have given up on him is becuase of scott... nooo not in that way, no! i mean, i sort see myself in scott... he's like a reflection of me.. both of us like someone who doesn't like us back.. and i've come to realise that i have indeed tried hard just for peterpen to like me, but not anymore i've promised to myself.. scott reminds me of what i used to do.. and i hate it.. so i've decided not to make much fool of myself and stop this non sense..
...this is my secret
Friday, March 02, 2007
late? or never?
today i woke up late and left at about 8:30 am, 30 minutes late compared to usual. i walked at a fast pace but decided that i shall catch the bus instead because there was no way that i would get to school on time. i arrived at the bus station at 8:40 am (5 minutes before the time that the school bell would ring) and, unfortunately, there was no sight of any south wilts grammar school student so i sat down and waited for the next bus to come. i waited... waited patiently for 30 minutes but nothing but those that aren't going pass SWGS came. so i decided just to go home and spend the time constructively by doing my maths coursework instead.
in my opinion, "it's better late than never" is a totally crap saying because
you wouldn't be late if you don't turn up in the first place.. right? innit
mate?! hahaha!
...this is my secret
glancei was walking in town alone, on my way home, when i saw my new and latest prospect, whom i have named "cuteness ang mata" because he was NOT ONLY totally cuteness, but because his eyes stand out of all the other cuteness features that he has been blessed of. a dark brown haired, tanned, gorgeous, tall guy about 5'10 in height blessed with bigger-than-small chinito shaped eyes would capture every girl's heart especially if those eyes land on you.. i really wasn't expecting to see him in Old George Mall, but when i did, i immediately looked away, pretending i was looking at the shops.. but i couldnt help myself from looking, even for just a second, so when we were like half a metre apart, i quickly glanced at his direction... when i did, i saw him (or rather caught him) looking at me too!!... gosh! kiliiig! but i kinda panicked, as i always do, so i took my eyes off him quickly before he could notice that 'i fancy him' (or "he is my prospect" in my own terminology).. walking with a smile stuck on my face, people were looking at me and probably thinking "is she crazy?" or something.. but hell do i care!?! hahaha!i dont know him personally.. all i know about him is that he goes to Bishops Wordsworth (Grammar) School because of the school uniform he was wearing and also because of the direction that he was heading to.. i dont know his year, his age, and not even his real name.. it just so happened that i always walk past him, usually in front of the shop called "QS" when we're crossing the road, when going to school in the morning.. i haven't noticed him until one day, i was looking at my iPod whilst crossing the road and suddenly realised that i should walk a bit faster otherwise i'd be ran over by the car and different bits of my body would scatter around the road.. when i looked up he was the first person i saw.. he was looking at me. it so happened that when i looked up, my eyes landed on his, so it was the first thing i've noticed.. about a few seconds after a full on eye-to-eye contact with this totally cuteness guy, after the "tameme" mode has been over, i looked at something else just to stop myself from staring at him.........people who know me well would know this.. just like the time after
school when i was walking past Tesco's with ate ivy and then she asked me where
peterpen could be and i answered "malamang wala" but when i looked up he was
standing right in front of me and i happened to look at him in the eye soooo, to
avoid this very awkward scenario, i looked at something just to take my eyes off
him.. and guess what? the first, nearest thing i looked at was a dustpan which
the cleaner was using! and i looked at it until ate ivy and i were already
inside Tesco hahaha!
.........so from then on i always secretly glance, for like one second, at his direction whenever i walk past him every morning..
...this is my secret
